Seize The Day
by: (HipCATZ) Anthony Grantham  - July 2000

Cold lifelessness,
Another long rainy December night surrounds,
A night uncaring, indifferent,
A night inflexible, unyielding,
Countless rhythmic waves of deafening silence, crashes, engulfs and overwhelms,
Paralyzing mind, body and soul,
Defenseless against the mental onslaught, a barrage of guilt and remorse,
I welcome a reprieve,
Still, dark cold thoughts roam unconstrained,
As chills run down my spine.

Eyes closed tightly,
Trying in vain to shut out the night, bringing inescapable visions of things to come,
In a world unsympathetic, uncaring,
In a world intolerant, unyielding,
Rain soaked, numb, warm tears stream down,
Mixing with stinging cold December rain,
Helplessly compelled to watch the world slip further into its insane hell,
I search; there must be a way,
Still, dark cold thoughts dance free,
As chills run down my spine.

Fists clenched forcefully,
Rage and anger builds, powerless, stop the prophecy of wickedness foretold,
Humanities doubts, suspicions,
Humanities fears, uncertainties,
Another frigidly cold wet winters night,
Guilt ridden forgotten,
I lay powerless as life's failures and disappointments frolic with pleasure,
I beg mercifully; bring it all to an end,
Still, dark cold thoughts assault unfettered,
As chills run down my spine.

Body trembles uncontrollably,
Haunting truths, unforgettable dreams unfulfilled die at the feet of mortal men
A life withered, exhausted,
A life shrivel, tired,
Death is but a gift as years wasted, existence endured, longing for an end to come,
Tears fall uncontrollably down upon frozen ground below,
Between gratings of the fire escape that entombs,
Falling, finding solitude in the sewer below, symbolic,
I see the wasted mess in which my life has been and become.
Still, Two words ring loudly, forever true:  "Carpe Diem",
As chills run down my spine.